Happy birthday, my sweet man. I miss you soooooooo much. I wish I was there to wake up next to you, kiss you, and spend the whole day with you. We could go eat something good and come back and cuddle for hours. You would probably find a way to annoy me somewhere in between, but I still want all of it.

Going through our pictures for this made me miss you even more. I kept remembering each time we got to see each other and how happy I was to finally be with you. And then I thought about how all of this started with us matching on Hinge and me sneaking you into the house. I really had no idea what I was getting myself into, but at least you ended up with the biggest blessing of your life. Me, obviously. I’m the funny one and your first baddie, so I understand this has been a lot for you to adjust to. That first night is still my favorite memory, even after everything we’ve done together since.

It’s been about three years now, and we’ve both changed so much. We’ve had good times and some really hard ones too. We haven’t always understood each other, and I know I’m not always good at expressing what I feel. But you mean so much to me. Even when I’m frustrated with you, I still want to talk to you, tell you about my day, and know how yours went. Somehow I can be annoyed at you and miss you so much at the same time. You should know that by now.

That’s what makes the distance so hard. We finally get to be together, have fun, eat good food, and just be us, and then we have to leave again. Coming back without you makes me so sad. I wish we could have more time without thinking about when one of us has to go. But I would do it all again for you. I’d rather miss you until I get to see you again than not have you in my life.

I know how hard you work, and I’m proud of you. I wish I could be there more, especially when you’ve had a hard day. I love your emotional side, and I want you to be able to share everything with me. I might not always know what to say, but I want to listen. I want to be there for you through everything, and I hope I get better at showing you that.

For your birthday, I hope you know how loved you are by me, even when I’m giving you attitude. I hope this year brings you things you’ve worked so hard for, more reasons to be happy, and some time to actually enjoy it all. And obviously I’m hoping for more time with you too. More food dates, more pictures, more making out, and those five hours of cuddling.

I miss you soo much, my sweet man. I’m not good at writing any of this, but I hope you can feel how much I mean it. I wish I could say it to you in person and hold you right now. Until I can, you have this little collection of us. I can’t wait to add more.

Happy Birthday, My sweet big man with big butt